Long time no see

Hey all whats up. Long time no see! So im glad its almost summer and we started the camping season again. As i mentioned b4 my aunt owns a camping lot a Jellystone Park. Also i finally go to a real life aspie group! Its only once a month but its still cool. There is also events that go on. This is where all aspie groups in Chicago can get together and do outings. The first one im gonna attend to most likely is a party. It will have games and stuff. So im also looking forward to that. Its 2 weekends from now. Next weekend we are camping for memorial day! Cant wait:P I just hope it will be warm this time....the last 2 times we went it was cold as hell....I dont like the cold at all...and its not fun sleeping in that pop-up when its super cold. So hopefully it will be nicer this time. It is finally warming up though. The weather was so weird this Spring getting cold and warm and cold and warm....then it finally got hot like summer hot then when i finally think summer is here it gets cold again...and that was when we were camping. But anyways i think this time it will be nice when we go camping. Im really looking forward to this summer hopefully its full of camping and aspie meetings!:P

Also about the aspie meeting the people there are not like those people from the chat i used to go. I was soooo afraid that would but actually they are rather mature and calm,and most importantly not judgmental like the people i met on the main aspie chat. So far i get along with them well...hopefully it stays that way. Also its more in order and there is more rules then the chatrooms. Also everyone other mouth we have game night. So we have our main meeting then 2 weeks later we have the game night. Its really fun playing games with other aspies. I enjoy it and we do get along well:) So i am glad i got to go the aspie group after all. Anyways besides that not much going on. Ill see you all later! Peace!

Life lately

Hey All. Not much here....Thing is I'm an internet addict. I love to always chat online and YouTube at times too... I chat on skype and IRC as well as Facebook. I mainly talk to other aspies online,but there is often a lot of drama. For some reason i seem to have A LOT of trouble getting along with many others on skype and sometimes IRC still.... Even other aspies i feel i don't fit in... I am not perfect and they don't accept my flaws. I been called names like moron,retard,brat,selfish,idiot,ignorant... by others who got frustrated with me or just doing plain bullying. I bee left out of skype voice chats that had my friends in bc of a few people who just don't like me because of petty past stuff or just how i am. I know i am a little less functioning then them but it doesn't mean they should treat me less....does it? I really want to know..... this is just a short description to what goes on,online when chatting to other aspies. Its really tearing me apart...i wish i wasn't so addicted and go out and make REAL friends but even that is nerve wracking. I want to meet other autistics like me...but what if its just like online? What if i don't get along with them? Imagine the stress and depression i would have then......my depression is bad enough as it is... i guess thats the life of a net addict...

Also....lately it seems me and my parents are getting sick of each other...they want me to grow up and move on,get a job and such....and mainly i have trouble compromising. Really in my opinion some of its just plain out sucks. For example i have a brand new computer right? My moms computer is like 8 yrs old. Its one of those old Dell Dementions from the early-early mid 2000s...yea those...Dinosaur into days standards i guess. Well she is a net addict herself...but instead of addicted to chats she is addicted to those corny Facebook games. Apparently her old dino wont play them. So where does she go to use a decent computer to play her virtual hillbilly game? Mine!! I have an iPod touch by the skype app on there SUCKS. It lags like hell!! So its not even worth trying at times. I don't want to have to get off skype....at one point she wouldn't even check a skype IM i had on my own computer!! I was getting VERY pissed and i started to have a meltdown. The people in my IRC chat could tell i was having a meltdown too. It's not hard to tell when i get my meltdowns:P She stormed out and left...but she did it a few times when I would get my meltdowns for not being on my computer. Like i said i have my Ipod that i can IRC on at least but the skype app is lacking.....so that sets me off. Nor do i want to start up my old laptop again just to get on skype...it takes like 10 minutes to boot up at times. So that is just one of the things that causes tension between me and my family. Seems i have tension with family and friends...but i guess thats how the world is?? I don't know! lol Honestly I disagree that "its all me". I lost count at how many times people told me that.

Hey its me again!

Hey its me again! Long time no see! I forgot my password........again :/ and me being computer illiterate doesn't know how to reset it and all. So i never worried about it. But then my friend wanted me to join again so yea here i am:P Still not much here...I had a fun summer did a lot of camping like i did last summer. I have a lot of RL friends there which is nice. A couple of weeks ago i spent a whole week at one of my friends dorms(she is from the campground as well). A few weeks before that we went to Six Flags Great America for Fright Fest with my mom,aunt,cousins,adoptive cousin from campground,and the same friend from the campground as well. We had lots of fun! We also went down town. Lately i just been chillin' kinda bored lately. Winter is usually lonely for me and boring as well....so i do miss summer/early fall time. It is Christmas time soon though! I love Christmas:P I got my little tree up even! Oh! Yea i forgot! Guess what i got for my birthday almost 3 months ago?? I got my netbook finally! Finally a new computer! I was using that old 10 yr old laptop before.....and also that old desktop. The desktop is in storage now...i might get rid of it though. I still have the laptop sitting in my room. Anyways i saved up for my netbook and my mom helped pay the rest for my birthday on Sept 9th (i turned 21) Its an HP Mini 210-1070NR. A really nice little computer:P Does what i want it to do and is easy to take around as well. Oh also being 21 i went to my first bar:P It was fun. Something new. I felt so grown up! lol before then like 2 months back we went to the bar part of a restaurant. A few weeks ago i went to a real one.:P Its fun getting out on friday nights. Anyways besides that nothing new. But i am glad to be back posting again with a help of a friend lol:P See you all next post! TTYL.

I wish was better

I wish i wasn't so different. I feel im different then even other aspies and even special needs people. Like im not into drugs sex getting in trouble or even rated X jokes. But alot of these people in these chats are and alot of my friends special needs friends are like that too. It makes me feel alien. Should i just force myself to do that stuff so I am not so odd. Because is i continue the way I am I feel I won't even be liked by people who are "like" me. My friend gets mad when i bring this up and says i judge because she thinks I act like these people are bad and blah blah blah. I'm not like that. She doesn't get it. It's not them its me.... I want to find people who are closely like me...and closer to "normal" people. I wish my friend would just stop flipping out about all this and get i just have trouble with self esteme. I don't want to meet normal like aspies and all i rather hide from them and only meet people who are extremely like me. This has been depressing me for the last 2 years or so. I just wish i wasnt different i really hate who i am and I wish i was brave enough to change and fit in with the IRC aspie group or with people who are special needs and into sex jokes and such. Anyways I wish my friend would get me and stop thinking I'm judging.

Long time no see

Hey all whats up?? Long time no see!! Sorry i havent updated in like two months. Either i was to lazy to post anything or didn't have much to say. But my friend wanted me to post something so i guess ill write one today. Anyways i been fine. We have camped quite a few times this summer and it was fun. I made some friends there too which is nice. I have mentioned the camping trips i take in older entries. We can still camp if we like since we own a place there so thats cool. Anyways besides that not much happening. My friend from an IRC aspie chat is moving here to Chicago. She is from florida. So im looking forward to that! I just hope we get along well because we are different in many ways, although she is an aspie as well. I was gonna meet my friend from Alabama to go to her party since i was invited. It would of been a Halloween party. I wanted to meet her for a long time but appearently my mom and dad don't have enough money to send me and it sucks. I was looking forward to it. I wish there was a way i can make enough money between now and then but most likely not :( I hope to one day meet my friend and i mean soon.....not five years from now O.O So yea...not sure what im doing for Halloween i hope its not lousy. We will do a few Halloween outings with the same people we camp with. That will be fun. Next weekend we will most likey do that. This weekend not sure whats going on but i hope it isnt suckish. Being stuck in this house is already driving me bonkers and its not even winter yet!! So i really hope i can make it threw.... besides ill have a friend or two to hang with now that my friend is moving up here to see her BF who is also autie, and a couple friends,that including me. Anyones not much more to say.... Talk to you all later Peace out peeps!!!

Been Busy Lately

Hey all long time no see, lol. I've been kind of busy lately. We been camping a lot now that my aunt has that lot as i mentioned before. Its been a fun summer so far :) Last summer was kind of duty except when my friend Kathryn came to visit that was A LOT of fun!! Any ways this weekend we are not camping unfortunately :( My mom already made different plans to visit my aunt and my baby cousins, as well as go to my grandma's church picnic.... No offence but i rather camp and hang out. I find visiting relatives and family gatherings kind of boring..... Unless its like a trip or a fair. Something of that sort. The picnic is ok but kind of boring. I been there two years before. At my aunts we just sit around usually and usually at my grandma's we do that too. It's duty man. I wish my mom didn't make those plans. Also my mom might want to sleep over at my grandma's house. Luckily the weekend after that we might go camping again and we are differently gonna go to my aunts big party. There will be tons of people there. I have to admit I'm kind of nervous because there will be some people my age there that i don't know and i don't want to stick out..... I just hope it turns out well. Hopefully it will. Many of the teens are from my aunts friends kids. So i won't know a lot of the people. So that's my plans so far. For the week days next week i might babysit my cousin again, not sure. I babysat him yesterday. Anyways not much to say i might make another entry about some of the things that went on when we were camping, if I'm up to it. Well see you all later. Peace Out.

Sup Bloggers and Bloggets

I'm going camping again this weekend! :p Finally i got to see my aunts new camping lot and like i said before we can go there more now that she owns a place there. We are also going for the Forth of July too. This will be the first time we actually went for the Forth. It will be something new. I hope they have lots of fireworks! :D. It isn't Forth Of July without the fireworks!! lol Anyways yea I'm glad I'm going this weekend there's always plenty to do. After all the stress this weekend i think i need to get out. See i got k-lined from freenode chat server. Since my chat room is on that i got banned from my own chat room. I only go to my chat room and sometimes my friends chats. I did nothing wrong at all. I was just randomly booted. My friend Pikachu has a theory that the well known IRC computer hacker, ango might of used my IP address and pretended to be me and get me in trouble. We are still not sure. So we moved my room to Pika's server the thing is its taking a long time to move all the members to my new chat. I want to be able to have the same members. I'm actually evading the banned by using Pika's mibbit widget to get on it, a way to get to my room only threw Mibbit a chat client. I shouldn't be evading and i hope i don't get caught but its the only way to make sure i move everyone to the new chat. People are having trouble getting there and its not working out all right. It's a stressing me out. Also my skype been acting up too. At times the noise will be gone and i have to reboot my laptop. Its a pain. It will be fine at first then all the sudden i can't hear people. So this been a stressful week both problems happened 3 days ago and about the same time. I'm kinda wondering if someone is messing with me and my computers not sure. I just hope this k-line gets lifted and skype stops acting up. It's really taking a tole on me. But hopefully camping will keep my mind off it all. Well im gonna go. See you all later. Peace