Life lately

Hey All. Not much here....Thing is I'm an internet addict. I love to always chat online and YouTube at times too... I chat on skype and IRC as well as Facebook. I mainly talk to other aspies online,but there is often a lot of drama. For some reason i seem to have A LOT of trouble getting along with many others on skype and sometimes IRC still.... Even other aspies i feel i don't fit in... I am not perfect and they don't accept my flaws. I been called names like moron,retard,brat,selfish,idiot,ignorant... by others who got frustrated with me or just doing plain bullying. I bee left out of skype voice chats that had my friends in bc of a few people who just don't like me because of petty past stuff or just how i am. I know i am a little less functioning then them but it doesn't mean they should treat me less....does it? I really want to know..... this is just a short description to what goes on,online when chatting to other aspies. Its really tearing me apart...i wish i wasn't so addicted and go out and make REAL friends but even that is nerve wracking. I want to meet other autistics like me...but what if its just like online? What if i don't get along with them? Imagine the stress and depression i would have then......my depression is bad enough as it is... i guess thats the life of a net addict...

Also....lately it seems me and my parents are getting sick of each other...they want me to grow up and move on,get a job and such....and mainly i have trouble compromising. Really in my opinion some of its just plain out sucks. For example i have a brand new computer right? My moms computer is like 8 yrs old. Its one of those old Dell Dementions from the early-early mid 2000s...yea those...Dinosaur into days standards i guess. Well she is a net addict herself...but instead of addicted to chats she is addicted to those corny Facebook games. Apparently her old dino wont play them. So where does she go to use a decent computer to play her virtual hillbilly game? Mine!! I have an iPod touch by the skype app on there SUCKS. It lags like hell!! So its not even worth trying at times. I don't want to have to get off skype....at one point she wouldn't even check a skype IM i had on my own computer!! I was getting VERY pissed and i started to have a meltdown. The people in my IRC chat could tell i was having a meltdown too. It's not hard to tell when i get my meltdowns:P She stormed out and left...but she did it a few times when I would get my meltdowns for not being on my computer. Like i said i have my Ipod that i can IRC on at least but the skype app is lacking.....so that sets me off. Nor do i want to start up my old laptop again just to get on skype...it takes like 10 minutes to boot up at times. So that is just one of the things that causes tension between me and my family. Seems i have tension with family and friends...but i guess thats how the world is?? I don't know! lol Honestly I disagree that "its all me". I lost count at how many times people told me that.