Life lately

Hey All. Not much here....Thing is I'm an internet addict. I love to always chat online and YouTube at times too... I chat on skype and IRC as well as Facebook. I mainly talk to other aspies online,but there is often a lot of drama. For some reason i seem to have A LOT of trouble getting along with many others on skype and sometimes IRC still.... Even other aspies i feel i don't fit in... I am not perfect and they don't accept my flaws. I been called names like moron,retard,brat,selfish,idiot,ignorant... by others who got frustrated with me or just doing plain bullying. I bee left out of skype voice chats that had my friends in bc of a few people who just don't like me because of petty past stuff or just how i am. I know i am a little less functioning then them but it doesn't mean they should treat me less....does it? I really want to know..... this is just a short description to what goes on,online when chatting to other aspies. Its really tearing me apart...i wish i wasn't so addicted and go out and make REAL friends but even that is nerve wracking. I want to meet other autistics like me...but what if its just like online? What if i don't get along with them? Imagine the stress and depression i would have then......my depression is bad enough as it is... i guess thats the life of a net addict...

Also....lately it seems me and my parents are getting sick of each other...they want me to grow up and move on,get a job and such....and mainly i have trouble compromising. Really in my opinion some of its just plain out sucks. For example i have a brand new computer right? My moms computer is like 8 yrs old. Its one of those old Dell Dementions from the early-early mid 2000s...yea those...Dinosaur into days standards i guess. Well she is a net addict herself...but instead of addicted to chats she is addicted to those corny Facebook games. Apparently her old dino wont play them. So where does she go to use a decent computer to play her virtual hillbilly game? Mine!! I have an iPod touch by the skype app on there SUCKS. It lags like hell!! So its not even worth trying at times. I don't want to have to get off skype....at one point she wouldn't even check a skype IM i had on my own computer!! I was getting VERY pissed and i started to have a meltdown. The people in my IRC chat could tell i was having a meltdown too. It's not hard to tell when i get my meltdowns:P She stormed out and left...but she did it a few times when I would get my meltdowns for not being on my computer. Like i said i have my Ipod that i can IRC on at least but the skype app is lacking.....so that sets me off. Nor do i want to start up my old laptop again just to get on skype...it takes like 10 minutes to boot up at times. So that is just one of the things that causes tension between me and my family. Seems i have tension with family and friends...but i guess thats how the world is?? I don't know! lol Honestly I disagree that "its all me". I lost count at how many times people told me that.

Hey its me again!

Hey its me again! Long time no see! I forgot my password........again :/ and me being computer illiterate doesn't know how to reset it and all. So i never worried about it. But then my friend wanted me to join again so yea here i am:P Still not much here...I had a fun summer did a lot of camping like i did last summer. I have a lot of RL friends there which is nice. A couple of weeks ago i spent a whole week at one of my friends dorms(she is from the campground as well). A few weeks before that we went to Six Flags Great America for Fright Fest with my mom,aunt,cousins,adoptive cousin from campground,and the same friend from the campground as well. We had lots of fun! We also went down town. Lately i just been chillin' kinda bored lately. Winter is usually lonely for me and boring as well....so i do miss summer/early fall time. It is Christmas time soon though! I love Christmas:P I got my little tree up even! Oh! Yea i forgot! Guess what i got for my birthday almost 3 months ago?? I got my netbook finally! Finally a new computer! I was using that old 10 yr old laptop before.....and also that old desktop. The desktop is in storage now...i might get rid of it though. I still have the laptop sitting in my room. Anyways i saved up for my netbook and my mom helped pay the rest for my birthday on Sept 9th (i turned 21) Its an HP Mini 210-1070NR. A really nice little computer:P Does what i want it to do and is easy to take around as well. Oh also being 21 i went to my first bar:P It was fun. Something new. I felt so grown up! lol before then like 2 months back we went to the bar part of a restaurant. A few weeks ago i went to a real one.:P Its fun getting out on friday nights. Anyways besides that nothing new. But i am glad to be back posting again with a help of a friend lol:P See you all next post! TTYL.