An Aspie's Story Part 2

Hey again. This is now my second part of today's entry and OMG im so ditsy!! I forgot to mention Brittany!! Who is still my good friend it's just she is back in Indy too. I am still friends with Nikki too but i talk to Brit more and got along with her better. Anyways i met her at one of the apartments we lived in. See we actually lived in 2 apartments before out house in Avon. I met her at the first one. We are still friends :) I don't mean to sound Corny and lame but i met her myself. I would wait for the bus and she would always wave to me in from her car. She went to a different school then me at the time. Then the way home from the bus stop i seen her! So i got in the house told my dad i finally seen her after school time. Jumped on my bike before she got in the house and rode and found her. She was very quiet. She had Selective Mutism. At the time i didn't know. Anyways i end up doing the talking and i was nervous but i did fine. I made a friend. She has improved and is far more social now. She is grown up and does like many activities including work. When i was still in Indy she was often busy but i hung with her when i got a chance. I didn't like many of her friends though. They often were mean to me and found me annoying and immature and then there was her brother Brandon. Who was a BIG jerk. He called me childish, retarded, stupid you name it. Between him and her friends hanging out with Brit was often hard. It was overwhelming but i tried to have as much fun as i can or just avoid the people i didn't like and hang with Brit another time, but anyways we are still friends. Anyways i wanted to mention here because i forgot to in my other entry. Now to the part about what this blog was originally about......
I will mention how i was as a kid. I first start with my obsessions. I was never really into dolls and play make-up. I was more into cars and trains. I used to carry around cars and trains with me. I wanted cars and trains for my birthday and Christmas. In Kindergarten i started getting obsessed with the number 5. I would carry toy 5's around every were i went. When i lost a 5 i would freak out and cry. It was like losing a pet for me. I was sooooo happy when i finally found the 5. At 8 I started my obsession with the key chains and still like them to this day. Of course at 8 i still like all my previous stuff. The trains. The 5's As i kid i liked to draw and play with construction paper ect. I like to jump on my bed to music. I like to record my voice on my tape recorder i had. I loved playing with magnetic letters and numbers. I likes rolling around in my 2 Cozy Coupe Tikes cars and swing on my swing set. I started getting into natural disasters and all that at 9. I was into other things too in stages. In first grade i was into space and The Brave Little Toaster. In Second Grade i was into American flags and air planes. I also always liked evaluation and stuff like that too. I was never into sports i liked other kids games. I liked playing with my friends on the block. At school i like playing train and stuff like that. Days i played with others and days i sat alone it depended. In fifth grade is when i played with others the most. Still i didn't act like most kids though i liked playing with 5's and toys and cried a lot. Were is most kids my age wore make up and talked about the opposite sex. So yea i was quiet different. I was very social with the school kids. I wasn't into those kind of kids. I found them boring and not interesting but yet they thought i was weird and a baby so we were even lol. The summer of 1997 i think my mom made me go to a day camp which i wasn't very fond off. I didn't like the kids there either or being away from home even if it was just a DAY camp. The teacher there was a jerk and the kids were mean. I didn't like sports either so i often say out. The day camp wasnt my thing. I didn't feel comfortable playing with them even with non sport games. For some reason i like the kids on my block better who went to different schools. It's because they accepted me for who i was. They didn't call me baby or make fun of me. They wanted to play with me and like i said liked me for who i was. They are all grown up and moved out though. I miss them had fun with them. When we were older would would go cruising around and get icecream and stuff like that. It was fun :) I have to admit i was very social as a little kid and often didn't like other kids because they acted so much older but i was more social with kids on my block and some of the few school friends i had. Then i went to middle school and moved and all ect ect i mentioned all that in my first part won't mention it again lol. Also of course as an aspie i must mention my stims. Most of these stims i had since i was little. I suck my thumb. I crumble paper and stick other thin things under my nails. With this I often got in trouble in school with this habit because my school work and text books would have crumpled ripped corners. I often forgot i did it and didn't think it would cause much damage. I like to fidget with things too a lot. Like toys and books. I also tap a lot. I tap on toys, key chains, surfaces, books, etc. I still at times carry a bag of my favorite key chains with me when i go to places for like a whole day or more. My grandma and dad think I'm weird for doing this still :( Saying what the?? A girl you age should have stuff like make up in your purse not key chains...... Oh well :/ At least my mom doesn't judge about it. I have my own social axciety too. I hated speeches, often meeting new people, afraid of being around mean kids, and caring what others think of me. I'm still scared to be around autistics and aspies who seem cooler or more normal then me. This is my most current social axciety . Still I'm often shy and quiet around people i don't know. I'm still scared to be around people who may be mean to me such as Brit's friends. I want to avoid being bullied. I was week when people bullied me. Instead of sticking up for myself I would and still often do cry or look out the window. I was always week and an innocent person. I am also sensitive. So I'm seen as kind of a week Pansy person most likely. So anyways that's some stuff about me lol. I hope i didn't bore you guys. See you all later. Peace