Civil War of the Autistics

Hey I'm back. I notice how there can be a lot of heat between autistics amongst themselves. I use to go to this autistic chat room all the time. Then it started going down the drain. The room started braking up and "cliques" would make there own chat rooms, including me as well. I got my own chat room away from all the jerks in the main chat. For the longest time there been heat btw the clique I'm in and the other clique. My pal, one of my best friends from the chat is neutral. She doesn't like the fighting that's going on. It often upsets her. Another thing i often feel different then most autistics in the main chat. I also feel different then other autistics in this other autistic channel i go too. I often avoid main autistic chats because I feel more autistic then them. They seem so much more mature and well more normal. I'm different. I'm still like a kid and have weird obsessions and interests. I'm very sensitive and rather sheltered. Many autistics in the main chat don't show that. My friend gets at me about how i can't tell over the computer who is autistic or not. I just wish she understood were i was coming from. I mean she is autistic too. Well most likely she is. She isn't DX yet. Anyways yes she doesn't like it. She things i judge. I'm trying not too. I'm just feel low about myself and feel i cant be myself even in an autistic room. She wants me to be myself though. If i complain about how I'm a loser and how uncool,and call other auties cooler then me she gets upset. I still don't get why. She says i don't get it :( I don't know but anyways that's how i feel about this whole autistic chat things. May seem childish to a lot of you and its just a chat not that important. Not an important part of life. But if i ever do go to a REAL autistic group and its like the bullies in the chat or like the higher functioning auties i will feel rather uneasy. I feel a lot of people are better then me. It makes me envy and even hate. I know that's wrong. It is. I don't want to hate i rather be kind. Its just hard to love others when its hard to love myself. Now i know what people mean by i need to love myself before others... This is just my problem though. The main chat is divided with silly cliques and me and some of my buddies get bullied by other autistics its sad. I think it may because they feel bad about themselves so they want to bully others. Its sad. I wonder how these autistics are like in real life and if they were bullied a lot in there lives too. Also maybe they don't know how to act. Autistics tend to have trouble with social life. So do i and one of my biggest social axcieties is feel scared around people how i feel are so much better then me. But really we are all the same i just feel like im the lowest often. So yea i dont only feel uncomfy around NTs (normal people) i often feel like that around other autisitcs, and if not more! Because the can be normal despite there condition and i can't.... Well anyways don't want to bore you guys. So I'm gonna get going see ya all next time!!

Sup

Hey bloggers whats up? Speaking of "whats up" many of my other aspies friends take it literal and say the sky. AHH! lol That joke is soooo old. Its as old as a piece of old hard rotten bread under a stove of a family owned resturant that been passed down a few generations, and that the bread is hard enough that if you threw it at someone they would be knocked out! Dont forget it being sooo black from mold its as dark an underground cave during night! lol Anyways not much is happening here. I got 2 new vidoes up on youtube! It was only gonna be one but it got cut off,so i had to make another one. Its about my storm book collection. Good to watch for those who like storms. So check it out!! its called "My Storm Book Collection part 1" and then part 2. When you see the nice girlstorm09 then thats me. Anyways not much to say here. Yea my life is pretty boring. Sad. lol. Well gonna go bye!

Autism Walk

Hi all whats up? Not much here. I'm just chatting on the 'net. I can't wait 'till May. May will be my first Autism walk i been too. It will be in down town so that will be really cool too. I love going down town :D. I'm excited about the walk even though it seems so far away, lol. I hope to meet other auties like me, and even make some friends. Also by then it will be warm out. Chicago weather is odd and often sucks. Like a week and half ago it was so nice out for a few days then it drops and gets cold again! It even snowed yesterday! ICK! lol. I hate cold and with Chicago weather the cold doesn't officially end 'till like the beginning of May some years. Anyways about my youtube videos my friend told me she couldn't find me by just typing in "girlstorm09" if that happens to any of you as well just go to " My Enormous Keychain collection" and then there should be my name. To see the other one just click my nick then and it will be there. On both videos it shows my huge keychain collection :) Well anyways im gonna go. ttyl. bye! :)

Hi all

Hi all. Whats Up? I would like to tell you about myself. Im 19 years old and was born Sept. 9. 1989. I was born in Chicago and lived in the area most of my life. I lived in Indianapolis, In for about 6 years of my life. I know live back in Chicago. My name is Ashley and i have Aspergers Syndrome, a mild form of autism. My interests are in weather,storms,and other natural disasters. My hobbies are collecting keychains. I have over 600 keychains!! I also love to travil and i love amusement parks. Im a rollercoaster daredevil ! :D. My all time favorite keychains are the ones i got from trips and vacations i been on. If you want check out my youtube page my nick there is Girlstorm09. :D I hope to get to know other aspies(people with aspergers). comment me please! ttyl bye