I wish was better

I wish i wasn't so different. I feel im different then even other aspies and even special needs people. Like im not into drugs sex getting in trouble or even rated X jokes. But alot of these people in these chats are and alot of my friends special needs friends are like that too. It makes me feel alien. Should i just force myself to do that stuff so I am not so odd. Because is i continue the way I am I feel I won't even be liked by people who are "like" me. My friend gets mad when i bring this up and says i judge because she thinks I act like these people are bad and blah blah blah. I'm not like that. She doesn't get it. It's not them its me.... I want to find people who are closely like me...and closer to "normal" people. I wish my friend would just stop flipping out about all this and get i just have trouble with self esteme. I don't want to meet normal like aspies and all i rather hide from them and only meet people who are extremely like me. This has been depressing me for the last 2 years or so. I just wish i wasnt different i really hate who i am and I wish i was brave enough to change and fit in with the IRC aspie group or with people who are special needs and into sex jokes and such. Anyways I wish my friend would get me and stop thinking I'm judging.

Long time no see

Hey all whats up?? Long time no see!! Sorry i havent updated in like two months. Either i was to lazy to post anything or didn't have much to say. But my friend wanted me to post something so i guess ill write one today. Anyways i been fine. We have camped quite a few times this summer and it was fun. I made some friends there too which is nice. I have mentioned the camping trips i take in older entries. We can still camp if we like since we own a place there so thats cool. Anyways besides that not much happening. My friend from an IRC aspie chat is moving here to Chicago. She is from florida. So im looking forward to that! I just hope we get along well because we are different in many ways, although she is an aspie as well. I was gonna meet my friend from Alabama to go to her party since i was invited. It would of been a Halloween party. I wanted to meet her for a long time but appearently my mom and dad don't have enough money to send me and it sucks. I was looking forward to it. I wish there was a way i can make enough money between now and then but most likely not :( I hope to one day meet my friend and i mean soon.....not five years from now O.O So yea...not sure what im doing for Halloween i hope its not lousy. We will do a few Halloween outings with the same people we camp with. That will be fun. Next weekend we will most likey do that. This weekend not sure whats going on but i hope it isnt suckish. Being stuck in this house is already driving me bonkers and its not even winter yet!! So i really hope i can make it threw.... besides ill have a friend or two to hang with now that my friend is moving up here to see her BF who is also autie, and a couple friends,that including me. Anyones not much more to say.... Talk to you all later Peace out peeps!!!

Been Busy Lately

Hey all long time no see, lol. I've been kind of busy lately. We been camping a lot now that my aunt has that lot as i mentioned before. Its been a fun summer so far :) Last summer was kind of duty except when my friend Kathryn came to visit that was A LOT of fun!! Any ways this weekend we are not camping unfortunately :( My mom already made different plans to visit my aunt and my baby cousins, as well as go to my grandma's church picnic.... No offence but i rather camp and hang out. I find visiting relatives and family gatherings kind of boring..... Unless its like a trip or a fair. Something of that sort. The picnic is ok but kind of boring. I been there two years before. At my aunts we just sit around usually and usually at my grandma's we do that too. It's duty man. I wish my mom didn't make those plans. Also my mom might want to sleep over at my grandma's house. Luckily the weekend after that we might go camping again and we are differently gonna go to my aunts big party. There will be tons of people there. I have to admit I'm kind of nervous because there will be some people my age there that i don't know and i don't want to stick out..... I just hope it turns out well. Hopefully it will. Many of the teens are from my aunts friends kids. So i won't know a lot of the people. So that's my plans so far. For the week days next week i might babysit my cousin again, not sure. I babysat him yesterday. Anyways not much to say i might make another entry about some of the things that went on when we were camping, if I'm up to it. Well see you all later. Peace Out.

Sup Bloggers and Bloggets

I'm going camping again this weekend! :p Finally i got to see my aunts new camping lot and like i said before we can go there more now that she owns a place there. We are also going for the Forth of July too. This will be the first time we actually went for the Forth. It will be something new. I hope they have lots of fireworks! :D. It isn't Forth Of July without the fireworks!! lol Anyways yea I'm glad I'm going this weekend there's always plenty to do. After all the stress this weekend i think i need to get out. See i got k-lined from freenode chat server. Since my chat room is on that i got banned from my own chat room. I only go to my chat room and sometimes my friends chats. I did nothing wrong at all. I was just randomly booted. My friend Pikachu has a theory that the well known IRC computer hacker, ango might of used my IP address and pretended to be me and get me in trouble. We are still not sure. So we moved my room to Pika's server the thing is its taking a long time to move all the members to my new chat. I want to be able to have the same members. I'm actually evading the banned by using Pika's mibbit widget to get on it, a way to get to my room only threw Mibbit a chat client. I shouldn't be evading and i hope i don't get caught but its the only way to make sure i move everyone to the new chat. People are having trouble getting there and its not working out all right. It's a stressing me out. Also my skype been acting up too. At times the noise will be gone and i have to reboot my laptop. Its a pain. It will be fine at first then all the sudden i can't hear people. So this been a stressful week both problems happened 3 days ago and about the same time. I'm kinda wondering if someone is messing with me and my computers not sure. I just hope this k-line gets lifted and skype stops acting up. It's really taking a tole on me. But hopefully camping will keep my mind off it all. Well im gonna go. See you all later. Peace

World's Shortest Entry

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Wisconsin Dells

Hey all!! I had lots of fun this weekend at Wis. Dells! It would of been more fun if it haven't been so cold. We could of went to some water parks. It was raining too but a little rain doesn't hurt its the cold that gets to people lol. Anyways I still had lots of fun!! Friday night we when on an Army Duck and toured the Wisconsin River and surrounding forest areas. An Army duck is a boat that travels on land as well as water. Its was like a tour bus and boat in one! It was really awesome. The particular boat we were in was built in the 1940s so it was really old but still in good shape. Then we ate out and after that headed back to the hotel. We swum for a while. They had a regular pool, hot tub, and kiddie pool. The kiddie pool was more fun then the real pool!! lol It had dump buckets, sprinklers,jets, and a small water slide. The hot tub felt so good and comfy. Saturday we went to the Mt. Olympus Theme Park. It had a theme park, indoor theme park,water park,and indoor water park. The indoor water park you still had to go outside to the clothes lockers so it was still to cold. I still had fun on the coasters though! I love coasters! I went on the Hades, the biggest and fastest one there. It went underground too!!! It was soooo cool. Super fast in the dark. Other coaster i went on was the Zeus and Cyclops. The indoor coaster i went on was called the Opa. I also when on Apollos Swing it was a giant 4 seated swing ride. That was really fun :). All the coasters were fun :) The Cyclops packed a punch for a smaller coaster by the way! lol. We also went on the go-carts too and of course it wouldn't be a amusement park day without the funnel cake!! The funner cake was yummy :) We bought a funner cake making kit from a Wis. cheese store on the way home as well. :) Later that day we went to down town Wis. Dells and looked around. I got my favorite candy, chocolate covered gummy bears. yummy!!! The next morning, well the morning of today, lol we went out and had a big breakfast. It was suppose to be a famous Wis restaurant called Paul Banyans. I'm not a big eater of breakfast but i still had some stuff and it was good. So i had lots of fun :) So that completes my three events i mentioned a while back, the Walk for Autism, camping at our campground, and Wis Dells. AWWW and how it all went by so quick :( Well summer is still coming up and now that my aunt has a camping lot we will camp more too. So there still may be a lot to look forward too. See you all next entry!! Peace (Y)

An Aspie's Story Part 2

Hey again. This is now my second part of today's entry and OMG im so ditsy!! I forgot to mention Brittany!! Who is still my good friend it's just she is back in Indy too. I am still friends with Nikki too but i talk to Brit more and got along with her better. Anyways i met her at one of the apartments we lived in. See we actually lived in 2 apartments before out house in Avon. I met her at the first one. We are still friends :) I don't mean to sound Corny and lame but i met her myself. I would wait for the bus and she would always wave to me in from her car. She went to a different school then me at the time. Then the way home from the bus stop i seen her! So i got in the house told my dad i finally seen her after school time. Jumped on my bike before she got in the house and rode and found her. She was very quiet. She had Selective Mutism. At the time i didn't know. Anyways i end up doing the talking and i was nervous but i did fine. I made a friend. She has improved and is far more social now. She is grown up and does like many activities including work. When i was still in Indy she was often busy but i hung with her when i got a chance. I didn't like many of her friends though. They often were mean to me and found me annoying and immature and then there was her brother Brandon. Who was a BIG jerk. He called me childish, retarded, stupid you name it. Between him and her friends hanging out with Brit was often hard. It was overwhelming but i tried to have as much fun as i can or just avoid the people i didn't like and hang with Brit another time, but anyways we are still friends. Anyways i wanted to mention here because i forgot to in my other entry. Now to the part about what this blog was originally about......
I will mention how i was as a kid. I first start with my obsessions. I was never really into dolls and play make-up. I was more into cars and trains. I used to carry around cars and trains with me. I wanted cars and trains for my birthday and Christmas. In Kindergarten i started getting obsessed with the number 5. I would carry toy 5's around every were i went. When i lost a 5 i would freak out and cry. It was like losing a pet for me. I was sooooo happy when i finally found the 5. At 8 I started my obsession with the key chains and still like them to this day. Of course at 8 i still like all my previous stuff. The trains. The 5's As i kid i liked to draw and play with construction paper ect. I like to jump on my bed to music. I like to record my voice on my tape recorder i had. I loved playing with magnetic letters and numbers. I likes rolling around in my 2 Cozy Coupe Tikes cars and swing on my swing set. I started getting into natural disasters and all that at 9. I was into other things too in stages. In first grade i was into space and The Brave Little Toaster. In Second Grade i was into American flags and air planes. I also always liked evaluation and stuff like that too. I was never into sports i liked other kids games. I liked playing with my friends on the block. At school i like playing train and stuff like that. Days i played with others and days i sat alone it depended. In fifth grade is when i played with others the most. Still i didn't act like most kids though i liked playing with 5's and toys and cried a lot. Were is most kids my age wore make up and talked about the opposite sex. So yea i was quiet different. I was very social with the school kids. I wasn't into those kind of kids. I found them boring and not interesting but yet they thought i was weird and a baby so we were even lol. The summer of 1997 i think my mom made me go to a day camp which i wasn't very fond off. I didn't like the kids there either or being away from home even if it was just a DAY camp. The teacher there was a jerk and the kids were mean. I didn't like sports either so i often say out. The day camp wasnt my thing. I didn't feel comfortable playing with them even with non sport games. For some reason i like the kids on my block better who went to different schools. It's because they accepted me for who i was. They didn't call me baby or make fun of me. They wanted to play with me and like i said liked me for who i was. They are all grown up and moved out though. I miss them had fun with them. When we were older would would go cruising around and get icecream and stuff like that. It was fun :) I have to admit i was very social as a little kid and often didn't like other kids because they acted so much older but i was more social with kids on my block and some of the few school friends i had. Then i went to middle school and moved and all ect ect i mentioned all that in my first part won't mention it again lol. Also of course as an aspie i must mention my stims. Most of these stims i had since i was little. I suck my thumb. I crumble paper and stick other thin things under my nails. With this I often got in trouble in school with this habit because my school work and text books would have crumpled ripped corners. I often forgot i did it and didn't think it would cause much damage. I like to fidget with things too a lot. Like toys and books. I also tap a lot. I tap on toys, key chains, surfaces, books, etc. I still at times carry a bag of my favorite key chains with me when i go to places for like a whole day or more. My grandma and dad think I'm weird for doing this still :( Saying what the?? A girl you age should have stuff like make up in your purse not key chains...... Oh well :/ At least my mom doesn't judge about it. I have my own social axciety too. I hated speeches, often meeting new people, afraid of being around mean kids, and caring what others think of me. I'm still scared to be around autistics and aspies who seem cooler or more normal then me. This is my most current social axciety . Still I'm often shy and quiet around people i don't know. I'm still scared to be around people who may be mean to me such as Brit's friends. I want to avoid being bullied. I was week when people bullied me. Instead of sticking up for myself I would and still often do cry or look out the window. I was always week and an innocent person. I am also sensitive. So I'm seen as kind of a week Pansy person most likely. So anyways that's some stuff about me lol. I hope i didn't bore you guys. See you all later. Peace

An Aspie's Story

Hey all. As i was coming across my friends blog i notice she talked about her school like and all that. It was really interesting to read about an aspie's life story. So i was like hey maybe i can write one of my own!! So in to days entry i will right about my childhood and teenage hood and all that. I hope it doesn't bore anyone. I'll try my best not to make it boring lol.
So i moved to Whiting Indiana (near Chicago land) at 4 and had a lot of playmates at that neighborhood. I've lived there from 4 to late 12. I had lots of good memories from that block i lived on. We would play games, have pool parties in my next door neighbors pool, played in my back yard, ride around in my 2 cozy coupes, etc. These kids were like 1,2,3.....years older then me. They were fun. They accepted my for who i was. Then i went to kindergarten. Just an innocent little girl. lol I was kinda different in a way. I whined more then most of them and was kinda slow. Like they knew how to tie there shoes and use scissors probably. I didn't. I didn't know how to write well either. I didn't even know how to count right away. So yea i was kind of slow. Threw elementary school i was kind of slow at some things. Also i didn't like the kids like i liked the kids who lived on my block. A lot of them made fun of me because i cried a lot was just different. I was made of fun of a lot too. It really sucked. Elementary had its fun times too though. Like its field trips, holiday parties, Science fun day, evening fun fest events, prices for doing all your work, ect. Third grade was the coolest. The teach had a Little Tikes castle with foam blocks built around it. Each day we would take turns spending a day it in and to pick a partner. We got to build around it and all. We also make stuff like pizza, dino rice crispy treats,and this snack she made up called dot toast. Also we would get these fake bucks called Bunny Bucks for rewards. At the end of the year we got to buy real things!! It was a little store in her class room and no its was boring stuff like pencils, notebooks, and erasers. It was cool stuff like toys and candy! Anyways kids made fun me me a lot in elementary school but i still had some fun time. Then i went to middle school i went to 3 different ones( i'll explain why in a moment) Sixth grade i went to Clark Middle School. No offence but the kids were pure ghetto and just mean. The kids came from like 3 different elementary schools including mine. Sixth grade was the worse for me! The would steal my stuff, call my cry baby, even sing DON'T CRY NOW!! to me in front of others, try to push me down the stairs and into lockers, throw things at me. It sucked. Those kids were the most miserable people i seen. Then never were happy and acted like they were to good for everything. They were just ick. Oh i forgot to mention most i had some friends though elementary school. Like Katrina and Patrica. Katrina was a lot more mature then me but we still got along. Patrica was fun at times but kinda bossy. In 5th grade i had some more friends like Melanie and Andrea and Jessie. Even though i didn't come friends friends with them they came to my 11th b-day party. Andrea i hung out with more though. She was kind of like me. I still wonder if she was an aspie. See was often teased like me too. I don't see any of these people anymore. Anyways back to what i was saying.... in 7th grade i went to a different school. We moved to Indianapolis Indiana because my dad got laid off his air port job because of Sept 11th. I talked to people in seventh grade time to time. We moves to a temporary apartment until we could find a house. In the 7th grade i became friends with these 2 girls who lived there named Kim and Megan. They were soooo more mature then me and found me different. Soon they would make fun of me and make my 7th grade life pure hell. They made fun of me for not knowing sex terms like they did. The called me baby. Even Kim threatened me at times. Megan was at least a little nicer. Still they were not like me. They really scarred me in a way. At times i think people will make fun of me for being kind of sheltered because people like them did. In 8th grade we moved to a house finally in Avon, In like 5 to 10 mins away from Indy. The school system was a lot nicer there. People were more laid back and kid like. I talked to a lot of people but because people found me kind of different and annoying at times i didn't become close to them. I didn't have things in common with them and had trouble socializing like them. I had a main friend named Nikki threw out 8th grade and high school. In 10th grade i become friends with some people who were special needs. One who lived in my 'hood. I was best best friends with her but hung with her once in a while. My friend Nikki was nice but we fought a lot! Often a times i didn't think she was a good friend. Times we didn't click. It really stressed me out and often kept me away from talking to others because i was often worried about this one friend. It's often something that would happen with me. It totally sucked. As i grew older i became more to myself. I no longer cared about how i wanted to fit in and all that. I was just getting sick of school and was only thinking about getting out. The end of the second semester of 12th grade we moved back to the Chicago area. This time Midway Chicago. My mom let me be home schooled over the computer for the rest of my 12th grade. I didn't want to deal with going to a different school again. I was glad she did that for me!! Probably one of the best things she did for me really. It was a lot of money you know. Then i graduated and had my diploma sent in the mail! I was soo happy and i didn't have to go up on no stage in front of all those people! So i was so lucky. Now i been out of school and glad. I don't think i want to go to college though. I didn't like school i hated i truly. Hopefully my mom can help me find special programs to find jobs that suit me. Believe me i wouldn't be a cashier is someone paid me!! Well...DUH people WOULD pay me that's what a jobs are for lol But you know what i meant so yea lol. I want to do something the make me comfortable and not stressed out. Oh and i forgot to mention i was DX with aspergers at late 14 so the summer right before high school. So in elementary and middle school i didn't truly know why i was different. That's a look thew my life. Next entry I'll mention more of how i was like and what i liked to do as a kid. Didn't want to mention EVERYTHING in this entry lol its already long enough. Anyways my next entry will be about how i was as a kid and all that good stuff. TTYL. Peace out.

Some Things about me

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER SOMEONE? I don't think so, no
2.WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? 2 days ago
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? umm i dont really care either way
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? salomi
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? umm depends what kinda person i was
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? No not really only when im peed off at someone or just playing around
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?. yes i proboly would why not sounds fun!!!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Cookie Crisp
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? No not really im kinda lazy like that lol
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? ummm not really acsully im kinda out of shape lol
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Choc rock with choc icecream from Dairy Queen
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? what kinda personality they may give off
15. RED OR PINK? Pink
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF? Being so different even different then a lot of other aspergers/HFA people :(
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My friend Brittany
18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Brown pants an i have no shoes on now
19. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?A Twix candy bar
20. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The cars going by my house
21. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? sky blue
22. FAVORITE SMELLS? oo thats hard but i do like fresh baked sweets cooking in the oven
23. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?My friend Preston
24. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? no one sent it i copied it from a friends blog and yes i do like her shes awesome!!
25. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? umm im not into sports really so i dont know
26. HAIR COLOR? Brown
27. EYE COLOR? brown.
28. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No i have glasses
29. FAVORITE FOOD? buffalo wings or shrimp alferdo
30. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? happy endings but so NOT sappy endings!!
31. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Twister
32. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?black.
33. SUMMER OR WINTER? so summer all the way winter sucks horridly
34. HUGS OR KISSES? hugs kisses kidna gross me out like really......
35. FAVORITE DESSERT? icecream from an icecream sop!!!!
36. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Ummm respond to what.....?
37. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? no book now but the last one i read was Katrina 8 Hours that Changes Mississippi forever
38. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Happy Bunny!! :D
39. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? didnt watch anything last night but the night b4 i watch Twister ( one of my fave movies)
40. FAVOURITE SOUND? forest area during a summer night the ocean :)
41. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?Beatles.
42. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? California
43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? umm not that i can think of........im kinda creative and i know some things about weather and storms but nothing amazing, no :/
44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Oaklawn Ill.
45. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? hmm anyone who wants to copy and paste and is a friend of mine i guess lol
So yea thats some more things about me that i found from while looking threw my friend Nicholes blog so i thoughat i would do one myself. :) I was also looking for one of these for a while anyways but couldn't seem to find one lol. Anyways see all next blog!

Can't Wait!!

Yay!! I can't wait to Wisconsin Dells this weekend!! Like i said i never been there before but many people have, and said it was a lot of fun. I seen commercials about it too. The amusement parks...... the water parks.......all that fun. That boat mobile thing they have looks fun too. Its like a car that you ride in the water!!! It can be like a real life Sponge Bob boat mobile except it doesn't go underwater just above. Anyways most likely we will go to the biggest park there. I also want to go to this thrill park. It had like bungee jumping and the Sky Coaster. I never been on those kind of rides but i always wanted to go on them. There's many chances i could of went on rides like that but they were extra money. And every time I was at a park we had many people with us so we would have enough money for all. Hopefully this time i can go on rides like that. And of course ill sooo go on the coasters too!! I looooove coasters!! Especially the steel hyper coasters. Wooden ones are fun too but not as fun as the big dog steel ones. One day i want to go to Ceder Point. Never been there but i know it has some of the biggest thrill rides. That's soooo me!! I love thrill rides!! So does my friend Nichole. I want to meet up with her one day in person and go on some awesome rides together!!! My friends Preston on the other hand, who is more autistic then me, doesn't like thrill rides. He likes kiddie kids. Kiddie rides can be fun at times but not ALL THE TIME. And no one wants to spend 60 dollars to get in a big amusement park to ride kiddie rides. You can do that at your local fair or a kiddie park. Preston is an autistic friend from the net as well. I would also like to meet up with him too but if i do its best we plan something we both like to do. So....anyways we are heading out early this Friday. Friday night we are gonna go swimming at the hotel and stuff. Then my 'rents are gonna go out themselves and ill stay behind and chat on my laptop ( thank god i have a laptop or i be hella screwed) Then Saturday will be the day full of fun and Sunday of course we will be heading back. It will be like a 3 to 4 hour ride from Chicago. I've been to Wisconsin before just not Wisconsin Dells. We went for the big fest called The Big Gig. That was like when i was 7 and 8. We went two years in a row. So I've been to Wisc. and did the road trip and all. It shouldn't seen that long anyways. :) So yea I'm really excited!!! Can't wait!!! When i get back I'll write an entry about my trip of course. See you all later!! Piece (Y)

My Camping Trip

Hi all. My camping trip was lots of fun! :D There was even a carnival there too. They often have things like that at the camp group too. I also swam at the beach there and built sand castles in the sand with my cousin. I went to two dances, hung with some people, swum in the pool, had a camp fire, played bingo etc. The cool thing is finally my aunt bought a camping lot there!! So now we can go anytime like the rest!!! I can't wait. Finally i can get to know more people there and maybe have more friends. There is some interesting people there and plenty of people my age. Although i noticed i actually enjoy hanging with people around my cousins ages more then mine. I feel more comfortable and free with people like 13 or younger often. Many people my age seem to grown up for me, more serious, and more judgmental in my opinion. I am kinda like a 10 year old at heart. I like to be hyper,random,silly etc. So i fit in better with a younger group of kids. Most kids my age want to make out, drink, act obnoxious, and stair at the cell phones all day lol. Also I'm not that social so Amy and her friends, the people my age i hung with seemed a little to social and mature for me. Still i hung out with them. I still had fun with them too. I actually hung out with people i would never hang out with on a regular basis. It was vacation so what the heck. I lived a little lol. I when to the dances but didn't really dance except to the Casper Slide. I am not into dancing really i just hang out. There was some awkward times as well one is were i dresses as a hippie in my Halloween hippie costume. It was because it was 50s and 60s weekend. So the second dance was based on that. I end up being the only one dressing up really. Many people were staring but the good thing is some liked it too. Someone said i should of even won the best dressed contest they were holding there. I don't know if i wouldn't of won or not wasn't at the dance floor at that moment i was most likely in the arcade with my little friends and cousins. Another thing was me, my cousins, and the younger friends were all bored so one of them wanted to play truth or dare. Some ask Ben my youngest cousin truth or dare. He said truth. One of the girls asked him "do you pic your nose" and he was like "no" So i said yea right i see you do it all the time!! ( and he does) so he got upset. I can tell when he is about to attack so i got up and ran and he pushed me down and i smashed my chocolate shake. It got all over my hippie costume so i was kinda mad. ( the chocolate shake was from the snack bar connected to the arcade room, yea its not your typical camp ground) So i turned around and spilled the rest of my already ruined shake on him and said see how YOU like it!!!! This time he was enraged so he jumped on me and slammed me on the ground. I end up getting a bloody nose!!! I was soooo embarrassed and i had to find the bathroom. I was trying to make sure no one would see me. People end up seeing me though. This group of people about my age but they actually helped me and that was very nice of them. So yea it was an interesting trip. The carnival they had there was fun too. I even got an elephant ear and cotton candy! yummy :) Also they even had a car show for one of the days. They had some cool cars there. Mostly 50's and 60's styled ones hence the 50s and 60s weekend. I also got another new key chain. Its a key chain Yogi Bear projector. Its really cool. It projects Yogi Bear cartoon pics on the wall or ceiling. Anyways that was my weekend it was a lot of fun!!! Next weekend not the one coming up but after that we are going to Wisconsin Dells. I'm really looking forward to that!! I'll write a blog about the trip too when the time comes. Anyways ttyl bye!! see you next blog. peace (Y)

Bored

Hi Sup? Not much here. Just bored as hell. So i wanted to write in here. Anyways Friday we had out for our family camping trip to Jellystone Park! Can't wait!! What's cool is its the biggest Jellystone park in the US! There's a lot to do there and like i said since people own lots there for the summer we often see the same people. So each of us have a few friends there. Although my friends are NT and far more social then me they are still fun. Just hope they dont find me boring since i dont dance. Yes one of the Saturday night activities is a teen dance. It's not like your typical camp ground, theres plenty of fun things to do there. Sitting around the fire at night and having smores. Swimming in the pool. Its relaxing and fun :) We went there since i was 9 and now im 19. Also we got our own golf cart and dont have to rent one anymore. The place is really big so people use the carts to travel. Most all who own lots have there own cart. We dont have out own lot yet but maybe soon we will. If my aunt finds a good place to by. Now that would be sooo cool. Its livey friendly and fun there so its a good place to be.
Rember i mentioned my tornado keychain? I just wanted to show a pic of the tornado thats if you arnt from the chatroom and have already seen it, or if you havent checked out my youtube by the way if you dont know my youtube nick is girlstorm09 and here is my pic of the tornado (note i did NOT make that caption lol thats my friends flicker and she just saved my pic on it so yea) http://www.flickr.com/photos/27929785@N08/2599610216/in/photostream/ :) Read the caption she put for the tornado its funny lol. Oh and that house in the backround is my grandmas house lol not like it matters but yea. Anyways see you all later ok. Peace out! Peace out homies! Peeeeeeeeeace ooouuuuutt-taahh!!!! :D :D

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey

Sup all. Not much here. Had fun at the Walk last weekend. See!!!! no hate it was full of love really. IT was nice out too. I also got 3 new key chains there :D at the Autism Store they had there. See!! they even know there is key chain loving auties out there!!!! :D lol The walk was nice we walks by the lake and part of the down town area past the museums so it was fun. Also we are camping the coming up weekend!! YAY sething to look forward too :D Still for some reason i feel kinda depressed now dont know why. Being different and stuff. How some of those autistics are like younger then me and are soooo past me in maturity wise. Its like "Eat my dust loser!!!" lol They don't really say that but really how do you know how that really think. Ok I'm not trying to sound paranoid here...... but really i often feel like that :( *sigh* Then there is my friend here who has trouble focusing on her own life! I mean she is worried about what i do with my life!! She keeps bugging me to go to college. School sucks a** I hated it so much its was like ick...... Anyways so yea im not going to school again. Check this!!! The girl who hates school as much as ME and i mean i hated it to the point it depressed the hell out of me,maybe even MORE then me, is telling me to go to college. Aye aye aye..... Kinda weird but ok. Really. I would like to see HER go to college :D Really its not fun and games i imagine..... school is school is school..... Anyways, yea, she needs to worry about her own life lol. She is a good friend and its nice she is concerned but really I'll be fine :) Also another thing im so glad i don't have too see many of these people from the net in RL i wouldn't be able to deal with it. I have severe social axciety so yea i couldn't deal with being around autistics who are more advanced then me. Anyways enough of all that talk to you all later. Peace (Y)

A Lot Coming Up

Hi all whats up? So this Saturday will finally by the walk i mentioned a lot in my past entries. I think it will be fun and i heck i may make some friends :D Then next weekend we are going camping!That will be cool. We are going to the camp group we always go too. I think i mentioned it before. People actually live there for the summer and all and since we go there a lot we know a lot of people. We are going for Memorial Day Weekend so it will be lots of fun!!! Also in the beginning of June we are going to Wisconsin Dells. I never been there before but i heard it was a lot of fun and had plenty to do. There will be lots of amusement park rides too. I LOVE rides!! lol So i am excited a lot coming up :) I just hope it all turns out well and nothing goes wrong. As all i do all those events i will mention it in my blog. The autism walk is a few days away so i will mention about it in my next entry most likely. Anyways talk to you later! peace (Y) :D

Autism Speaks

Hey bloggers. Well that autism walk i mention in other entries is upset some of my friends. I should of mentioned this when it was on my mind but i was bored so i wanted to write something in my blog. Well one day on a conference call i mentioned about my walk I will be going on the 16th. They were all like oh no what is for? What does it sponsor? Well i got the folder off my kitchen table and read it to them. I said oh its for Autism Speaks. I didn't know much about Autism Speaks neither does my mom. When i even mention Autism Speaks to some of my friend they flip out and i mean FLIP OUT! Like its the end of the world! They act as if Autism Speaks is some Nazi concentration camp! First of all Autism Speaks does NOT want to kill autistic people. Second of all everyone needs to stop being paranoid and making me feel guilty about it! We already made plans to go anyways. My mom's co-worker told her about it. His son has autism too. They are going to the walk. So I'll maybe get to meet his son. Anyways another thing they say if the technology was around when i was born i would of be aborted!! My friends say they would abort there autistic children. First of all its not Autism Speaks choice it is the parents and second of all my mom said even if the technology WAS around then she would NOT abort me!!! So yea i don't see what my paranoid friends problems are. I mean i one friend who was like when you go be careful please? "Be cautious!" "It may be dangerous" I kid you not! Really! Sad isn't it? So yea I'm still going and all because i go doesn't mean Ill be some different person. Ill be the same person i ever was....... I just hope they understand that. I'm not for or against curing autism. Really its up to others not me. So really its not gonna do any harm if i go. We are going to help raise money, maybe meet some other auties, and get out of this house. Really anything is better then sitting in the house all day every day......... Anyways....see you all later Peace all (Y) and word of the wise............(and you all know who you are) STOP BEING SO PARANOID!!!! :D lol again peace (Y)

Natural Disasters

This poem about is about natural disasters. It's for Poem in your Pocket day that Nichole told me about. She kepy begging me over and over to make a poem so im like ugg ok i will but it will be suckish.... lol so here is a poem im thinking up as i go its not planned out so here goes......

Tornado winds quickly twirl
Lifting up cars and houses in a swirl

Earthquakes shake the ground
as structures collaps all around

Volcanos send out gas and lava with a BOOOM
sending a whole town to its doom

Hurricanes have the great 2 in 1 punch
combination of water and wind makes homes go CRUNCH!

Floods sends water crashing down
as debris floats and sinks all around

Tsunomi's towering waves will ingulf us all
and can push over structures that are even 3 or more stor

Thunder storms can give off a pretty sight
but at the same time give off a great fright

Landslides can be full of rocks mud and even snow
and when one strikes no one will often know

Sea Storms throw boats around like childrens toys
It can be a fright to all and stop sailing joys

Wild fires can burn acres of land and fills the air with black smoke
with raging heat and and can cause people to choke

Natural Disasters come in all forms and can strike anytime but dont live in fear
you can always follow safety procedures take cuason and get prepered

Sup Bloggers

Hi all. Sup? I Finally got my Katrina book! I got it on Sunday. It's a really cool book :) Anyways i didn't go to Indy this weekend i guess my mom didn't feel like going so we went to my aunts instead. She lives like 2 hours away from us in Plymouth Indiana. Out there is all country and she lives on a farm. It was her dad's farm house. We also camp with her and my cousins each summer at this huge camp ground. It's called Jelly stone Park and one of the biggest Jelly Stone parks too! Its really fun people even have summer homes there. Even though we don't have a summer home we stay there for like a whole week and on some weekends. We even know people there too :D I have a few friends there as well. Since the place is so big people rent or have golf carts to travel around in the park. My aunt finally bought a golf cart of her own. So now we can just travel around on our own cart. Anyways back to my aunts farm its like 17 acers. She has her golf cart, a 4 Wheeler, a barn, and and small forest area even! It's really cool. She also has two horses and like 7 ducks too. I tried riding one of her horses. I was kinda of scared and wanted have my mom outside but my little cousin kept egging me on just to horse back ride with him. I knew it wouldn't be the best idea but i went anyways. I'm new at this so i had trouble steering the horse so when me and the horse got to close to a fence my foot got stuck in it and the horse was continuing without me!! I guess the horse got scared when she got stuck and bucked me off!! Yea that was not fun at all. I hurt my hand a side really bad. I was even dizzy at first. Then i was like OK I'll take a brake from that..... Now i know next time not to ride with out my mom or aunt around. Good think is i don't have no broken bones or anything. I'm still a little soar but much better now. Also we pop up my aunts camper we use to camp in, and camped I'm my aunts back yard! Me and my cousins did. It was cool. Before that we had a camp fire for a lot of the night. It was like real camping. It was fun and i can't wait till we go real camping at Jelly stone park. On Sunday we ate at one of those drive-in fast food places were you eat in the car. It was located by this lake in this old fashioned kinda town. So i had a fun weekend The weather was nice and summer like too :) When i got back home is when i saw my book was on the table. It was in a box and i said oooo this must be my book and it was! lol Anyways talk to you all next entry :) Peace (Y)

Summer Dilemma

Hey All. I got this problem. I wanted my friend to visit it me. My friend from Alabama(Nic, of course). Well since we are both aspies we both have different social issues. These issues clash. She doesn't want to come visit me with out anyone coming along. Her mom won't come along nor will her step sister. So, she wants to bring a friend. This one person in particular named Amanda. Amanda might be autistic but the thing is the stuff she does makes her seem normal and cool. I'm not and I'm very different. I don't want her friend thinking I'm weird and retarded. We are both into different stuff. Also I may seem sheltered to her, a loser, and a geek. My friend refuses to go by herself and Amanda is her only choice now. So yea i guess she wont come and im sad because of that. I soooo wanted her to visit but since our issues clash it wont work. She doesn't like going by herself and i don't like being around autistic people who can be normal and cool and make me look retarded. So yea I'm sad. Is there a way i can have my friend come and NOT bring her or should i just say forget it? What would you all do? I know i REFUSE and i mean purely REFUSE to meet Amanda. I don't want to stress my self so much i have a nervous brake down. Believe me it wouldn't be pretty. So yea i guess she can't come :( I need to convince her to come with out her. Any ideas? Please help! Leave a comment to what i should do all please.

This and That

Hey all. How are you all you? Anyways I'm happy for my friend! She gets to go on here vacation after all! lol. Well she is on it now. Many things kept happening to were she couldn't go and it was really depressing her. We all felt bad. She has stress enough but her family and band teacher decided to let her go! It's a trip with her band calls to Disney World! Sounds so fun i wish i can go. She was soooo happy when she found out she could go. I bet she is having lots of fun now :D! Another thing my mom ordered my Katrina book i wanted!! She ordered it on Monday. It should come to 5 to 10 business days. So i can't wait to get it! I hope it comes soon lol. Friday is suppose to get up to the 80s here! It will be the nicest day so far. Hopefully maybe we do something this weekend it would be nice. OK, and now for something that happened yesterday night that was kind of stupid. Me and my friend Preston were on a conference call with two other autie buddies of ours. Well we were talking about autism walks and Autism speaks. Then i mentioned about another member from the many chats who doesn't seem very autistic to me. Preston agreed with me. Were Dan and Richard the two others didn't. So me and Preston were having a debate with the other party about who is more autistic, us (me and Preston) or the girl. It make me and Preston enraged because we are some of the most autistic people on the chats. Dan and Richard would not get there. They don't even know us that well and they are saying this border-line autistic/normal person is more autistic then us. We know autism and we know me and Preston are more autistic. So yea its stupid i know. lol It's not like it was a stupid contest or anything it was about how us Preston and me and more trouble being normal and fitting in with society then that girl will ever do. So it really ticked us off because they don't even know how hard its for us and how different we are. They were saying the same thing to us how we don't know how hard it's to be her and yada yada. It was going in circles so me and Preston just went to our own phone convo and they had there's. So yea its stupid but really it did upset us a little how they just assume things. Anyways not much more to say lol That was just some this and that. See you all next entry! peace (Y)

Raechal and Marcy

Hi all. Sup? Not much here. No whats awesome?? Me and my friend shared dream charactors. Well like a year back i had a dream that we were at the campground we go to every summer. People stay there for the summer so people get to know each other. Since the place so sooo big people buy or rent golf carts to travel on too. Anyways i had a dream i met an aspie there. A short Hispanic girl with curly hair. She also had severe ADHD were she had to take meds, as well as some learning disabilities. Like 5 months later i had a dream about this other aspie who was tall skinny and had wavy blond hair and kinda looked like the girl from Jurassic Park. She was a major tom boy but was VERY clingy. Me being kinda shy and to myself would run away from her hugs and often avoid her. It hurt her. Later i felt bad and wanted to be her friend so we became good friends again. Anyways i told my friend about both dreams and both characters. Remember there's are two totally different dreams. Well me and my friend were talking about them a joking about them for like a hour as we were talking on the phone. She told me she bet she can dream about both is she things very very hard and guess what? She did!! It was soo weird both characters fit my subscriptions and both had a certain personality. Last night we made names for them for fun. So the names were used in here dream. Marcy was the short Hispanic girl who was overly hyper and kept getting lost. Rachael was the hyper tom boy who was to clingy. Her dream took place at Six Flags!! All for of us took a trip there and i was the one who drove even though i don't in real life! My friend had so many details about her dream it was so awesome. Like she said i one this over sized key chain stuffed hurricane that everyone had to take turns curring. Or that Marcy would get lost and we had to text message her and search for her. My friend won a white tiger. Marcy screamed like a tiny girl on the coasters. Rachael burped in my friends face. Rachael has a mild meltdown at some point. etc etc. Of course we went on many fun rides too. It's weird how Rachael and Marcy didn't know each other but met each other in my friends dream and all. Its cool. I tried my hardest to dream about them too but instead i got other weird dreams. Maybe I will try again this night lol. I guess my friend is better at controlling her dreams then me :(. Anyways Marcy was more like me in a way and Rachael was more like my friend. But all in all we all got along well and had lots of fun!! Only if it was all real....be so nice...... :D

Nice Weather

Hey Bloggers. Sup? Not much here. It's finally been nice nice out the past two days. I'm so glad. I was getting super sick of this lingering winter weather. It was like up to low 70s today! :D Anyways not much here. I know boring. I'm not doing squat this weekend, just like how most my weekends are sadly :( I over heard my mom say we might do something next weekend but i couldn't make out what!! lol. So who knows whats going on next weekend. I'll just have to wait and see i guess. I also made a new friend too. She is cool and kind of on the aspie level of me. She seems like a fun person and not like those phonies autistics i see mostly on IRC chats. Most of those autistics are self-DX and not even autistic seeming. Anyways enough about that. So yea i made an awesome friend :). hmmmm.... It's getting close to the end of the month i guess so closer to the autism walk. I can't wait to do that. Yea not much to say here. I have not wrote in here in the past few days because don't have much to say. So.... I will see you all next time. Ttyal. Peace. (Y)

Hey Hey Hey

Hey Bloggers. Whats up? Not much going on here. My Easter sucked though :/ I got the flu so i ended up puking all Saturday night and part of early Sunday morning. Not fun :( My 'rents are suck too. As well as people i talk to on the net. Seems like everyone is getting sick. Must be this weird weather we are having. It doesn't even feel like Spring really. It's still all cold and all it sucks. I'm better now in a way but i kind of feel week. I just hope i don't get full fledged sick again. ick. Anyways anyone who reads my friends blog (i don't know if she wants me to give out her real name) she says how she should use shorter words for me and may explain. Well Ill explain then. I'm autistic but NOT an autistic savant. I wish i was a savant so i was some how decent :( But I'm a slower learner that a lot of people. If only she understood that and fancy dancy words won't work for me. High level words i don't understand and if i look up her words on the robot dictionary it has MORE words within the def. that is hard for me to understand. So really looking i up is useless. My friend tells me to read more but heck i only will read what interests me. I don't read boring shiz. If you look at one of my videos it will tell you what kinda books i read. So ummm yea... that's why i don't like when she uses big words or fancy writing styles either. I mean i don't understand metaphors either. She uses soooo many its like what....is......she......talking........ about.......... Then i drift off like an ADHD person would and start thinking of totally different things. It's not like I'm bored just lost and not at my level. It's waaaay above my head. Ok so what else do i want to talk about.... hmmm not much here never have much to share. Tells you how much of a life i have. lol Thats why i but games in some of my entries have nothing else to say or i just use games to pep it up a little. Well anyways gonna go see you all next entry. Adios :D

Happy Easter

Hey Happy Easter Bloggers. Easter day for some Easter Eve still for others. Its still Easter Eve here. Tomorrow we are going to my grandma's for Easter with the family. Now im watching my cousins for some money :) Now i cant get the book that i wanted for a long time now. I was gonna get it last time i babysat but i decided to by a webcam instead. Since i didnt have a web cam then but had already plenty storm books, so i decided to hold off 'till i get the next round of babysitting money. The book is called Katrina. Eight Hours That Changed Mississippi Coast Forever. I already have 4 Katrina books, but as you already know i like storms books and Katrina was one of the most interesting storms. My aunt gave me this edible Easter grass. Ever heard of it? Its pretty good :) It's green apple flavor. It's good although a little rough i mean i think i got some stuck in my throat bc after i started eating it, it felt like something was stuck in my thoat. I even drank something, still stuck. A tad uncomrtable but yea lol hopefully it melts or goes away soon. I know i sound to old but still i hope i get some Easter candy tomorrow :) lol I mean come on no one is ever to old for candy! So yea not sure depends. Anyways not much more here to say just wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter! So have a enjoyable Easter! See you all next entry! :) (Y) peace

Dumb Arse Laptop

Hey all. Whats up? Annoyed and frustrated here. I have 2 computers this one I'm on and my laptop. My older computer is 98 so stuff like YouTube and Skype wont work well. Anyways i tried making a new video today and the computer gave me nothing but crap. It has been acting weird lately and i hope i don't have a virus oh I'll be ticked off. Either that or its bc this laptop is very old. See it used to be my aunts then she gave it to my mom and my mom gave it to me. I wanted a new laptop for last Christmas. But my mom decided to to give me the used laptop since laptops are a lot of money. But see I ask for one for like 2 or 3 years and after all this i get an old i fear doesn't work well!! It's frustrating. Anyways i go to record my video and it's going all slow then it keeps saying connecting and wont connect me. I tried this like 4 times and even rebooted twice and still wont connect me. Finally after all this it i the video finally works but cuts me off when i don't know it. Like around the 5:03 point not even the cut off time. When i watch it it gets worse. THERE IS NO SOUND! so i think maybe its the volume what ever. So i just so heck I'll make a second part. The second part cuts me off in 45 seconds although that one has sound. So both are then screwed up. Ones cut off and no sound and the other is really cut off. So i decided to delete them and it took me like 10 mins to figure out how to get rid of them and that too was screwing up. To top it off the computer is going slow as well as well. By no I'm fuming! I was ranting and raving in a chat to my friends bc i was so p*ssed and the thing that hurts me is my friend gets frustrated and ranty herself yet when i went off the deep end called me selfish sounding. At that point i was like WTF. She was like look at yourself!! She got mad all bc i said if my mom have got me a NEW computer this crap wouldn't happen. That seen to tick her off. That's what got her to say all that to me. Well she needs to understand i was p*ssed. It's like wtf... really. Well those crap a** videos are deleted and i have no interest in remaking them any more. Chances are it will screw up again... Don't know what the f*ck if wrong with this computer but it really ticked me off. It took 2 hours to make a what would be an 8 min video that didn't even happen and gave me nothing but a raging headache... So yea not to pleased now. To top it off i been depressed lately especially today just very down. I had another headache earlier as well. So today wasn't me day really. I just been gloomy,crappy,and sad all day, and no its not around that time for me either......just was in a horrid mood today don't know why. But anyways I'm gonna go and hope these 2 aspirin pills will actually work for me........

About Me

Sup fellow blogger. I have nothing much to say today so i will make a list my favorites. I will make my own list because I don't know were to find one that's all ready made, so I'll just make up my own. So here goes, my favorite:
Animal: Elephant second being dolphin
Car: 50s or 60s Cadillac convertible
Soda Pop: Coka Cola (drinking a can now :) )
State: Florida
City: Orlando or Chicago (but not when its ugly cold)
Season: Summer all the way! winter needs to die! lol
Holiday: Christmas (despite th cold)
Month: July
Interest: storms ( you should all know that by now)
Book: either Hurricane Katrina Threw the Eyes of Storm Chasers or Katrina Before and After
Age: it was the most fun when i was 6 or 7
Song: I don't really got just one fave but one of my all time faves is We Like To Party by Venga Boys.
Music Cat.: I would say i like Hiphop and a lot of 80s music
Movie: Forrest Gump or Day After Tomorrow
TV Show: I got a few: Storm Stories, Full Force Nature, Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends, Sponge Bob.
Kids Movie: Brave Little Toaster (all 3 movies)
Sites: IRC, Skype,Youtube,Google,Blogger
Theme Park: Either Kings Island Great American or Universal Studios Orlando
Thrill ride: Steel coasters all the way!!!
Color: Light blue
Food: Buffalo Wings or Fettachin Alfredo with Shrimp
Fast Food: Mcdonalds
Restarant: Rain Forest Cafe ( very good fun and fun place to be )
Dessert Food: Choc icecream with lots of topics and fillings
Candy Bar: Twix or Cookies 'n' Creme Hershey Bar
Non-Bar Candy: Chocolate Covered Gummy Bears
Way to Travel: By plane or boat
Pass Time: chatting on the net or youtubing
Toy: toy cars
Hobbie : keychains (remember have over 600 to my collection)
Key Chain: keychain tornado ( hopefully you seen it in my video)
Well thats a list of all my favorites if you would like copy and past this on your blog and do one of your own i would like to see all your favorites as well. Also if you all want to check out my youtube page still or didn't yet its www.youtube.com/user/girlstorm09 :) See you all next entry!

What the F*ck??

Hey sup bloggers. Ok this been in my mind today so I'll let it out in here. OK i got this friend ok? I won't give out her real name so I'll name her Stacy. Anyways "Stacy" is about my age. She might be autistic as well. Anyways at times I'm depressed. I often struggle with depression. I also am not very fond of myself either. Once i was on a rant and Stacy told me people would give up a limb to live myself. Well two things, 1. no one would do that shiz to be ME OK yea right ok then........ 2. This might sound like Ms Literal Aspie here but ummm if someone did give up a limb they would be crippled so they would STILL live a different life then me! DOY! lol So that all sums that. I understand my mom saying that but my friend? Wow!! What's this world coming too? What I'm saying is the quote makes no sense and its annoying as HELL. Hate that you got it made people would lose there leg to be me. I don't mean to sound selfish in this blog but really its a free country and freedom of speech. So yea i find that one phrase as sensible as people complain about global warming when its still snowing in May(and i don't mean places like Alaska)!!! So yea i just find that phrase lame and annoying. Don't know why i hate it so much but i do. I mean who would want to be ME! What's so special about me?? Nada!!! Nothing!! Zippo!! lol So i don't get it. Also i hate lectures. HATE THEM. I mise well have my ears bleed. I hate hearing the "look around you don't KNOW how life is" crap either. So there is two reasons i don't like that phrase. Also as i mentioned before i hope I'm not sounding literal but umm yea if someone cut off there leg they would not be living like me...... Someone who is stupid enough to injure themselves on purpose to live like someone else has serious problems and need help and quick...... So that's enough of my rant for today. See ya all next entry. Adios

My Trip to the Zoo

Sup. I just got back from day with my family. We went to the zoo as i mentioned in my previous entry. It was very fun, although a bit on the chilly side. Anyways we went to this exhibit called Dinosaurs Alive. It was were they had animatronic(sp? couldn't find it on spell check) dinosaurs like you see at theme park. There were like 18 different dinos. Three of them people could control them selves. It was cool. You can make it roar, swing its tail, move its claws etc. They were really loud too! My favorite dino there had to be the T-rex. Of course we seen other animals too. Lions, Elephants ( my fave animal), sea lions, tigers,bears, camels, gorillas, etc. We would of seen the dolphin show but the thing is one of the dolphins died so it was canceled. :( Although we did see one dolphin swim around. Other exhibits we went to was the Tropical house which had 3 parts. South America, Asia, and Africa. Each part had the animals that lives in that area. It was VERY hot in there!! Felt like you really were in the hot topics. We also went to the swamp house. It even mentioned the wet lands in my own home state, Ill. We got there a little later so we did miss out on some thinks but at least next time we will plan out better and go earlier. We missed out on the Aussie house, dessert house, and i think Rain Forest area. Also we didn't see some individual animals like giraffes. I think next time at least we will know were to go and go earlier. That way we wont miss out on anything. Still i had fun. Oh and don't forget the petting zoo we went there too and also road the zoo tram around for a little. Those things are fun to ride :) when we left of course i had to get a key chain. You all already know i collect key chains so with me, i just HAVE to get at least one key chain from everyone place we go! lol. That's just how i am. Key chains are like my obsessions/hobby :) After we were done with the zoo we went to my aunts (she was with us) and had dinner :) We had my favorite pasta dish :) Fettachini Alfredo with shrimp and chicken :) yummy! lol Then we had dessert. We had Hershey pie! Also very yummy :) So i had a fun filled day. Tomorrow I might go out again with my aunt and cousin to visit my other aunt and my little baby cousins. My mom is going tomorrow for sure but if im not to tired and up to it, I guess I'll tag along. Depends how i feel, really. Anyways its really later and im kinda tired will crash soon. No one is really on the net now, not on skype or IRC. Everyone must be asleep. Guess this means i mise well hit the hey as well, lol Anyways ttyal. Bye (Y) peace!

My Story Contest

Hey whats up again? I just got this cool idea! For some of my blog posts I'll make a short story but not the whole story then you will have to finish it anyways you want. Each person has to make a different part. Who evers is the best I'll add to the rest of my story and post the whole story on a next entry. Just post yout story part on the comments and the best story part will be added to my story. It can be funny or serious it's up to you. Be creative and use your imagination please!! So the rules use your own second part no one elses and be creative :) For my first one I'll make it short and simple.
There once was two twins named Karen and Jake. They were both autistic and were unquie in many ways. They were also very smart. Karen like to read and draw while Jake liked to build models and play video games. They had one thing in common though. They both liked space and rocket ships. They always drempt of traviling in space. One summer night they were very bored. So, they decided to go and collect junk from there dad's tool shed and junk from a near by junk yard. They bunched all the misc. scraps and old parts. They planned to make the ultimate rocket ship to take them to space. They drew out the plans then got to work. In a week or so there rocket ship was done. It was time to check it out and see if it worked.......
Now try to finish the rest of this story and remember be creative!! :D

Happy Friday

Hey all. Sup. Not much here. I'm glad it's the weekend. I don't go to school anymore and i dont work yet so it really doesn't matter. But still the weekend is nice because it's a better chance we will do something, since my mom doesn't work over the weekends. Tomorrow we are going to the zoo. I just hope the weather isn't freezing. But that's Chicago weather for you i guess. :/ I'm excited I am getting out of the house finally. Being stuck in the house is making me loopy! Anyways i don't got much to say so i thougt it would be cool if i made you guys a little game to figure out. Let's see if you guys can unscramble these weather words and put your answers for you comments :) good luck!

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Happy Autism Awarness Month!

Sup all? Not much here. It's Autism Awareness Month this month! Have an awesome month to all those auties out there! I hope you all have an nice month :) It just seems like it was April not long ago. How the time goes by soooo quick! Anyways not much happening today. This weekend will be fun though. I'm going to the zoo with my family. The Brookfield Zoo. We are going to see the dinosaur exhibit. It sounds really cool. We will probably see fossils and bones. Maybe there will robotic realistic dinos like at the theme parks. That would be really fun. Then of course we will see all the live and kicking really animals. lol It will be a fun weekend. Can't wait. I don't get out much so going to the zoo will be very fun. I'm also looking forward to that Autism walk. It would of been cool if it was this month though, since it is Autism Awareness Month. But oh well May is usually nicer and warmer anyways. I sure don't want to walk in that lingering stubborn winter cold that doesn't want to leave. So not much more to say here. So ttyal and again Happy Autism Awareness Month!! :D

Happy April Fools day all!!

Hey all whats up? Happy April First all!! Any of you played any cool jokes on people today?? I did a few on my friends on skype and in my chat. Most fell for my jokes!! YAY! lol nothing big but still funny. I love this "play holiday" its fun. I like peoples reactions after i say April Fools!!! Anyways if you would like to tell me about some cool jokes you pulled on your friends or family just post comments and tell me about it i would like to hear! So if you have any good ones that are interesting to share just go a head and post. :) Anyways besides that not much happen today. Im kinda bored....same ol' same ol'..... Well not much to say so ttyl bye

Civil War of the Autistics

Hey I'm back. I notice how there can be a lot of heat between autistics amongst themselves. I use to go to this autistic chat room all the time. Then it started going down the drain. The room started braking up and "cliques" would make there own chat rooms, including me as well. I got my own chat room away from all the jerks in the main chat. For the longest time there been heat btw the clique I'm in and the other clique. My pal, one of my best friends from the chat is neutral. She doesn't like the fighting that's going on. It often upsets her. Another thing i often feel different then most autistics in the main chat. I also feel different then other autistics in this other autistic channel i go too. I often avoid main autistic chats because I feel more autistic then them. They seem so much more mature and well more normal. I'm different. I'm still like a kid and have weird obsessions and interests. I'm very sensitive and rather sheltered. Many autistics in the main chat don't show that. My friend gets at me about how i can't tell over the computer who is autistic or not. I just wish she understood were i was coming from. I mean she is autistic too. Well most likely she is. She isn't DX yet. Anyways yes she doesn't like it. She things i judge. I'm trying not too. I'm just feel low about myself and feel i cant be myself even in an autistic room. She wants me to be myself though. If i complain about how I'm a loser and how uncool,and call other auties cooler then me she gets upset. I still don't get why. She says i don't get it :( I don't know but anyways that's how i feel about this whole autistic chat things. May seem childish to a lot of you and its just a chat not that important. Not an important part of life. But if i ever do go to a REAL autistic group and its like the bullies in the chat or like the higher functioning auties i will feel rather uneasy. I feel a lot of people are better then me. It makes me envy and even hate. I know that's wrong. It is. I don't want to hate i rather be kind. Its just hard to love others when its hard to love myself. Now i know what people mean by i need to love myself before others... This is just my problem though. The main chat is divided with silly cliques and me and some of my buddies get bullied by other autistics its sad. I think it may because they feel bad about themselves so they want to bully others. Its sad. I wonder how these autistics are like in real life and if they were bullied a lot in there lives too. Also maybe they don't know how to act. Autistics tend to have trouble with social life. So do i and one of my biggest social axcieties is feel scared around people how i feel are so much better then me. But really we are all the same i just feel like im the lowest often. So yea i dont only feel uncomfy around NTs (normal people) i often feel like that around other autisitcs, and if not more! Because the can be normal despite there condition and i can't.... Well anyways don't want to bore you guys. So I'm gonna get going see ya all next time!!

Sup

Hey bloggers whats up? Speaking of "whats up" many of my other aspies friends take it literal and say the sky. AHH! lol That joke is soooo old. Its as old as a piece of old hard rotten bread under a stove of a family owned resturant that been passed down a few generations, and that the bread is hard enough that if you threw it at someone they would be knocked out! Dont forget it being sooo black from mold its as dark an underground cave during night! lol Anyways not much is happening here. I got 2 new vidoes up on youtube! It was only gonna be one but it got cut off,so i had to make another one. Its about my storm book collection. Good to watch for those who like storms. So check it out!! its called "My Storm Book Collection part 1" and then part 2. When you see the nice girlstorm09 then thats me. Anyways not much to say here. Yea my life is pretty boring. Sad. lol. Well gonna go bye!

Autism Walk

Hi all whats up? Not much here. I'm just chatting on the 'net. I can't wait 'till May. May will be my first Autism walk i been too. It will be in down town so that will be really cool too. I love going down town :D. I'm excited about the walk even though it seems so far away, lol. I hope to meet other auties like me, and even make some friends. Also by then it will be warm out. Chicago weather is odd and often sucks. Like a week and half ago it was so nice out for a few days then it drops and gets cold again! It even snowed yesterday! ICK! lol. I hate cold and with Chicago weather the cold doesn't officially end 'till like the beginning of May some years. Anyways about my youtube videos my friend told me she couldn't find me by just typing in "girlstorm09" if that happens to any of you as well just go to " My Enormous Keychain collection" and then there should be my name. To see the other one just click my nick then and it will be there. On both videos it shows my huge keychain collection :) Well anyways im gonna go. ttyl. bye! :)

Hi all

Hi all. Whats Up? I would like to tell you about myself. Im 19 years old and was born Sept. 9. 1989. I was born in Chicago and lived in the area most of my life. I lived in Indianapolis, In for about 6 years of my life. I know live back in Chicago. My name is Ashley and i have Aspergers Syndrome, a mild form of autism. My interests are in weather,storms,and other natural disasters. My hobbies are collecting keychains. I have over 600 keychains!! I also love to travil and i love amusement parks. Im a rollercoaster daredevil ! :D. My all time favorite keychains are the ones i got from trips and vacations i been on. If you want check out my youtube page my nick there is Girlstorm09. :D I hope to get to know other aspies(people with aspergers). comment me please! ttyl bye